my wife, my best friend

Today i was having a very rough day. Most of it was due to my work. I was heavily scolded by my boss just because i didnt answer his phone on SUNDAY. He said as a serviceman (god damnit, now i am a SERVICEMAN!), i must standby 24hours for calls. I dont want to elaborate a lot on this matter as i know it wont change a bit.

i was so pissed that i really wanted to tell him that i quit. Enough of all this shit, especially from him. But i didnt, not because i dont dare but i know i cant give up so easily. So i got damn pissed the whole morning, really felt like just drive back and sleep. Dont want to give a shit on today's job. But somehow my conscience got a better grip on me, so i just do what ever i needed to do and do it willingly. THough deep down i was cursing mad.

Then i talk to li fei, i know i might sound like a whinner to her coz i kept on complaining how i was mistreated, how unfair my boss was and kept on complaining like i am a modern day cinderella.. But all i wanted was just to talk it out and get some console from her.

She knew i was very pissed, but then still, she is capable of in directly pointing out what i should have done to avoid the scolding, but skillfully she drive the topic back to "yeah, your boss is a total cave man, no feeling at all..."

Then she told me to hang on, to have faith, and to never give up, take the scolding as a challenge. Though she is not a practiced motivational speaker but her words gave me strength, strength to live on our dream. I am very weird. Even i personally dont know how to comfort myself, sometimes i needed someone to talk to me, sometime i wanted to be ignored. I also dont know what i want. But she knew.

Everytime i am on the brink of letting go, she will be by myside and give me strength to pick myself up. There are times when she is also very fed-up with her job, then i will do my part, but i believe i dont do it as good as she does to me. But i will just try. Because we are one, we are together. Anything that come to anyone of us, the other will not feel any better. So we kept on motivating and encouraging each other to continue with our dream and to never let go.

For her, i have promised to not give up. We have a dream, i cant let my own whinning fail us, especially her. Thank you my love. Without you, i would have let go so long ago. But for you, i will strive and will succeed.

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