I am 31 this year in 2015. Not too young to risk it all, not too old to be comfortable.
I hate going to work every Monday, the fear starts on Sunday evening, and Friday is the best day of the week. Where am i going with my life?
In a world of choices, should we trade career for better salary?
I have read numerous articles stating its better to work for a good boss rather than a good company.
It is easy to understand but tough to apply to ourselves.
With rising cost of living, no thanks to the recent implementation of GST, and sincerely thank GOD for giving me two wonderful little angels/monster (depending on THEIR preference) and a very supportive wife. I have mouths to feed and two houses mortgage to slave for..
With my current monthly salary along with part time tutoring, i am finding it really hard to make ends meet, and it sends shiver to my spine thinking what would happen in 5 years time, with the current income, probably with another 50% increment of my current salary.. shit..
I hated my company, i hate everything about it. I hate to look at my boss, i hate to communicate with my colleague, i hate the CRM reporting, i hate i am paid so low.. i just hate everything about my current company.
With LinkedIn, everyone is headhunted, not for my experience nor my skills, but its mainly for THEIR commission from the prospect. They will call you, letting you know there is a good opportunity with a big well known MNC and then in the end they will want to know why you want to change job. ? Then this is not headhunting, its more like a inverse job hunting.. nothing to be proud of..
Yes they paid 20% to 30% higher than my current salary, should i jump ship and start all over again??
But everytime i am about to make the final decision, then I would have thought about my customers which has been more like friends after my 2 years plus with this company. We can talk, we joke and we are more like friends rather than just business customers. Then i would think, would i be able to like the new product as much as i love my ventilator and anaesthesia machine?
In the end, i gave up the option and wait.. wait for another better job offer..
I was practically goalless at the start of this year, do not know what i really want for myself. Start my own business, doing homecare medical equipment, insurance as a career, get a home based career for more free time and a higher salary than my current position.. i am seriously confused and this really took a toll out of my life for the first few months of 2015.
So i told God, please help me i am really confused and i don't know what to do.
Then on one fine day, my current manager spoke to me, clearly he is not amuse with my current performance. I know i can speak my mind with him, because if this don't turn out well, i would just leave since i have a few position in hand.
My main frustration was, why after working for a few years, i am still a sales rep, whereas in peninsular, someone with my qualifications and years of experience (even though not really something that i could shout about), they are holding the position of Manager with quite a good salary(4 to 5k, probably)
i asked would i be taken advantage by the company, why shouldn't i just work myself. What would i get if i focus on doing what i am doing for the next three years with you??
He asked me, what do i have to lose? He told me, if i were to put in 110% in my work for the next 3 years, you would only gain , that he guarantees
After this 3 years, i would have made a very strong network, make a reputation for myself and if by that time the company couldn't fulfilled my request, there would definitely be abundant of opportunities awaits.
I have read an article, in order to be really good at something, we should spent at least 10 000 hours in doing it..
then i discuss with my wife, she kept on telling me, don't work for money, do the things that you have passion in. I don't want my husband to slave for money and do not have time for the family. Thats what she told me.
In the end i rationalized with myself, i hate my boss because he has been criticising me, pushing me to the edge of my comfort zone, i hate seeing him because he would question me on my procrastination, i hate having meeting because i have not finish my duty.. its MY problem.
I hate to go to work, because i go to WORK. Anthony Robbin once said, Activities without Purpose would drain your life away. This hit me like a truck.
They said without a proper mindset, nothing could be changed. If i were to start my business with my current mindset, i believe it would be a very tough.
So i told myself, i will take this job as a practice, to train my mindset. If this is my business, how would i run it? What would i do? How do i increase my company incomes?
So now my perception to Monday changes, i look forward to think and to act on how to increase my business income. Now my goal is clear, to increase my business income. So every activity of the days, is focus on how to generate more business rather than as a quota to satisfy my boss.
My goal for this year would be RM40 000 commission + incentives, lets pray this works out well for me.
I hope someday in the future when i read this back, I would thank my 31years old, for choosing career out of salary increment.
